Life can get daunting sometimes., especially when everything piles on like the sizable amount of dishes that you’ve left in your kitchen since last Sunday. In situations like that, it’s very easy to lose yourself. Whilst on the one hand you have so much stuff to do… The sheer amount of it leaves you exasperated on the couch, most likely with a tub of Ben and Jerrys ice cream. Sound familiar?
As a student, I can guarantee that my life is currently racing along the tracks with no brakes…I have hardly any time for myself. I look at the bags under my eyes and can’t help but feel helpless at myself. I’m an engineering student. My degree owns me. There’s nothing more to say. Still, I enjoy it. There’s this incredible sense of satisfaction when I derive a fluids equation, trust me, even nerds would find that nerdy! I love my course and yes, it’s a dysfunctional relationship but I can’t let go.
I say that and it seems as if all I think about is my course. Whilst that’s true for majority of the day…sometimes I need a break from it all. I just need to let myself out of this continuous cycle of work, sleep and eat. On a side note, whilst writing this post, I’ve started to realise just how similar degrees are to relationships and being in both I can tell you that it’s important to give yourself some personal space. Even if it’s just few hours to yourself. You need to let yourself breathe otherwise you’ll soon find yourself asphyxiated by the workload…
This weekend, as rare as it sounds, I decided to follow my own advice and take a break. I went to Durham to visit a friend and had a brilliant time. I could have stayed at home and watched several episodes of house but that doesn’t give me a break from my work or my life. I’m still inside the closed walls and I just don’t feel like I’m allowing myself time to be myself. One of the things I enjoy doing is travelling and seeing the world. So you can imagine that staying at home makes me incredibly agitated. I want to go out. I want to see places!
So Durham was exactly what I needed. The air was refreshing and the view was fantastic. Durham is such a beautiful little place. In fact, I felt I had time travelled to the time of kings and queens and almost expected knights in the market square. I was bitterly disappointed.
I felt that because I had taken that time off from work I could return to it feeling a lot more motivated. I was ready to start again. Based on this, I’ve decided I’m going to allow myself personal time. I can’t afford trips to different parts of England, partly because I just don’t have the time to do so, but I can afford two-weekly creative saturday mornings at the local coffee shop… I usually work at coffee shops but I’ve always wanted to read or draw there. It’s such a creative atmosphere. So let’s see!